archives 02/12/2002 oh man! i do not like my school now. i've registrated myself for the Bc exam in january (journalism) and decided on the theme of my Bc degree work on international relationships - the radical political movements and their influence on the polish foreign policy. lot of actions next week... we like it hot! ;-) (comment?) 05/12/2002 2:30 AM. the time to go sleep. but not for me. i wish i could foresee the things... but what would i do anyway? the only fact i'm sure of: it never happened to me before. i'm confused, i'm shivering, i can't speak. it's so strange to feel dizzy sometimes... (comment?) another entry today... i just would like to explain one thing: i really do appreciate that others feel for me. it's good to have friends with a helping hand. but right now, please let me go and do what i should *myslef*. your readiness to help is very nice, but you can only make it worse, so please let it be for a while, ok? i don't want to be cross on you... i like you all. i'll be right back, ok? and then we talk... (comments:1) 08/12/2002 yes i do. things just turn into nonsense, life as an absurd play mixed with soap opera and they want you to behave serious! reasonable! hehe, pretty silly.. and then you feel uneasy.. doing something you really hate. i still have the music and the sun shine. outside it's freezing cold - and i'm going to a polish party: to play my part. act like i like it. which is of course a lie: i don't like it at all and i wouldn't go there, but that would be even worse because of my polish teacher that couldn't go there alone - we gotta be there to help her out agains her rivals... stupid? you bet! and that's just one but symptomatic point. so some downtempo here and there and the dreams of next year. get out of this town. will try to learn slovenian next year - at least i'd like to... love to my lady... (comment?) 14/12/2002 some might think that my life is becoming too odd. that i seem to be changing. i doubt it. it's just an impression. i remember what i said, and not only: i think of it. it's just the circumstances. next week is going to be really tough with all the exams and tests. there's also a meeting with the teachers about the nsir project. but this was... interesting week. the very late tuesday night i was zonked out (no narcotics! just a strange condition), thinking of marriage before i finally drifted off. then on wednesday we celebrated dad's birthday - he's 50 today. it was really nice atmosphere and i was happy for it. in the evening i and marjánka went to see the film no man's land. a wry comedy... image of the war in bosnia. could be used as an addition for the 'global solutions of armed conflicts' course i attended this autumn. we discussed the bosnia and the unprofor too... and some more fun yesterday: marjánka intended to go home in the evening by train, she thought it's leaving at 19:08 - and it was 19:02. because we reached the railway station just on time, we saw the train is leaving just now - we hurried to the platform, i jumped inside the train but she was lacking few steps behind and was afraid to jump :) so i jumped off the yet speeding up train... it was almost like in a movie, you know :) (comment?) 15/12/2002 strange weekend. full of wicked mood and i scared some people - and i didn't want to. i met some people i didn't intended to. i should have learned and i did not. i feel stupid. would like to lie and have another cig and think of nothing... or to be with the most desired person (aka "luv u" - listening to it right now thanks to my favourite player, mr. jacek 'falcon' dojwa). i miss her like crazy. (comment?) 17/12/2002 exams. one fucked up, two tests ok. talking all the time with friends, but i guess it is becoming a little bit dangerous. i should stay home for a while. let the others live thier fates and don't mess up with it :| (comments:3) 21/12/2002 seems i didn't express myself clear. not at all. and thus some of you might be confused. but i'm too tired to do it now... later on, that's for sure... last three days were beautiful. and i can now burn cds myself :) finally! another poem written but i don't want anyone to read it :] merry christmas... (comments:5) 23/12/2002 hey, why wait, why not waste the atmosphere. the city is covered in snow. the poem is here for you. not the brightest one, heh. and check out also my lady's beautiful text... is it the christmas? nope. it's us. but believe it or not: i'm very happy. i know i'm strange, but i really enjoy to love and to be loved - although sometimes i might seem blue or 'distant away'. thanks all for their xmas greetings... see you... (comment?) 25/12/2002 yes, the gifts :) i read the 'the sandman: preludes and nocturnes' (here's some english and czech info). it's more than great. originally in colors, but in czech version only b&w - and that makes it even more beautiful (tho sometimes it's a bit too messy). wonderful. but you know what? i guess i don't like christmas much ;-) (comment?) 26/12/2002 perhaps it's due to the xmas time: czech tv brought us some czech films that has co-produced some time ago. it was kytice - a visually stunning movie, but probably no chance to understand it if you didn't read the poems (it's based on a classical czech book). and then i've seen today babí léto. a wonderful piece: it's about being still young and crazy in age of 76 :) (here some english info). not enough good news. my all time favourite musician jacek 'falcon' dojwa get together with dj patricia and their co-project named husky is doing really well. recently they released their first album called 'czy słyszysz'. i hope to have my hands on it quite soon :) (comment?) 29/12/2002 few minutes after midnite... fokin weather one may say... a bad news: t-mobile is gonna close its sms gateway - sending sms from net is gonna cost you money ;| i don't like them ;) i watched last but one episode of 4th series of sex and the city (is it normal? but hey, many guys watch this stupid sitcom... or we all went nuts?) btw. do you have some plans for new year's eve? i do :) (comment?) 31/12/2002 so this is it. the end of the year 2002. looking back without any anger... lot of changes, that's clear... old plans are in vain, replaced with some even more ridiculous ones ;) on sunday i've seen regis & sarken (it's the same as the last year, heh - and again new stunning concepts, brilliant small-talk, witty and clever... my vampire friend reaches for the top, yep). there were changes - and some of them quite big. but i suppose the year y2k+3 will bring even bigger challenges. but who knows? wishing you all happiness and love. you know who you are :) god bless you my friends... 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